Classes started for awhile already now, everything is start to go on traks and Uni life is starting to get abit more interesting then last semester. Having less time to hang out and game at the library makes me think that i should have use those time to study last sem and maybe i wont have to retake Math this sem. What done is done i told myself, nothing more that i can do about it. I just have to appreciate every minute and seconds of this semester as much as possible.
I am trying to find something to replace the emptiness in me, i guess it wont be easy as there is a hell lot of emptiness within me. Maybe alot of work and reports can make me forget about those empty spaces inside of my but once i become free and start to relax the emptiness becomes so obvious.
I am glad that i went back to Uni.
Well, thats it.
Today i finally went back to campus. I saw alot of new and excited faces and i tell myself they still dont know how suffering it will be when the courses starts running. Those excited faces will be lost forever.
This semester alot have changed, the way things are have change no more stressed over individual reports which consist so little to the final marks anymore. They finally heard our voices. This was the good news but when there is good news then there must be also bad news. This semester we don't get to choose who we work with anymore. Which is like a huge draw back to the good news of no individual report.
Starting today i officially join The Repeaters Group. Thats the name of the group that the school has arrange us into. They just can't think of a better name to call us i guess so they went for the easiest name they could come out with. I really wonder what this teacher can do to help us. Mr. Rajah, he claims to have a 100% pass class but i doubt his capablity to make all of us pass. This comes with a strong reason. Last semester he tought us physics and guess what? i was totally blur about physics untill the new teacher came and took over.
Thats all.
My holiday has at last come to an end. It was a holiday full with colours. Had alot of fun and also had the lowest time of my life. Waiting for the time to pass was like hell. Its a part of life as i see it.
I have more to learn out of everything i have experience for this pas weeks. Making me a better and more mature person in life. Giving me a different perceptive in life and also in the way i should live it. Brought me back to god and make me realise that only in Him that i can success in anything.
Don't know why memories of us together still flashs through my mind and making regret giving up. Maybe thats why ppl always say you should give up when you're still able to. Not like me, pushing on although i know one day when things can't go on i'll not be able to forget everything i've done to maintain this.
Well that's it.
Looking back at the past post made me feel like laughing. I was that naif little boy, think that as long as you work hard and give it all you got everything would work out. Turns out that naif little boy had a great fall and now rose again to be less believing and more realistic. The way the world spins can really change the point of view of the people in it.
Free from promises I feel light. Its like i don't have anymore things to think about and to do. Well maybe its called emptiness. Deep inside i can hear so tiny part of my tell me to not give up, you have gone so far, its too late to give up now. If only i could just press a delete button and delete that sound, i'll be happier in life.
Turns out i really failed my math. Something i can only regret and not complain. It was totaly my fault that this would happen. So, thats about all the updates i wanna type out today.
JOi.
Still having this misunderstanding with a very important person in my life. I dont know if she is still mad at me or not but i can't contact her this few days wondering if she is doing fine or not. This feeling is something i always experience. Maybe the 6409 kilometers is making us dirft away from each other. I dont really know but as far as I am concern, I am trying my best to make sure this work out. Hoping that one day see a smile on her face, seeing me be someone important.
Today i went for an eye test for the course i am going to attend on next monday. I went to this local clinic. When me and my fren when in to the clinic and ask to have a eye test the nurses there was like "WTF!! What is this two boys doing, coming here for an eye test? This is a clinic not a glasses shop!!" that's what i see from their reaction. After some explaination they finally understand and we did the eye test. i was unhappy with the nurses there, it's like i owe them money or something they were like unwilling to do their job.
I had an unpleasent moment with my mom, sometimes i just don't understand what she wants. blaming me for something i did not screwed up. Really pissed. But there is nothing i could do she is my mom. The woman who gave birth and raise me till I am this big. I should thank her more then i curse her.
That's part of my life today.
