Looking back on 2008

This year of mine started with lots and lots of disappointments. First my SPM result, was like a hit to the back of my head, telling me I am not always that luck to get good result with only so little effort put into studying last minute. I finally realise that all the doors in front of me are sealed shut. All my hopes and dreams fall down on to me and crush me. Weeks i could only stare blindly at the wall of my room. Thinking of nothing at all. The only person that was there for me was my mom. Everything and everyone was against me except her, being there telling me that its all rite, no matter what happen she will be there for me. I was not as optimistic compared to her. All i know then was my life that i planned was all gonna. She tired all her best to comfort me. Bringing to see consultants to look at the options i got. Thanks to her i was able to move on.

Then, followed by me failing my Semester One Engineering Maths, this time i didn't felt as bad as my SPM. I think i was mostly because i dropped my own standard. Failing to me, became normal. I told myself, again, i let my mom down again. I felt sad not because i fail it was because once again my mom didn't blame me, instead she say try harder make sure you pass next time.

If i was to put the 1st half of my 2008 into just one word it would be just DISAPPOINTMENT.

The start of the new semester, i told myself its time to set this right. No more disappointment, no more emo-ness. I am gonna make sure my life is back on track. Then i found her. She became a part of my life sharing my joy and sorrow. Caring for me. Asking me to study hard.

Then, my world started to get its colour back.

2008 suddenly to me is starting to work out. Things starting to change for the better. My result for semester 2 was a lot better then my semester 1 result. Good things started to happen my loan got approved.

Too many things happened this year. All of it has pasted. Looking forward, I am aiming to finish my course with good standings and hopefully my loan will change into a scholarship and hopefully i won't disappoint the ones i love again. Thank God for He has never forsaken me eventhough when I face problems I would always blame Him.

Two Days after Christmas

My Christmas this year was... how to say... Normal... Nothing Special about it...

The only regret this year, was i wasn't able to celebrate my dear's birthday with her. Hope this won't happen next. I hope next year it would be different. Hmm.. i think i'll have to start planing now.

I got nothing for christmas but, this year was interesting enough that I think that my life this year can be said to be a very good present to me. Will to think of it God gave me a pretty good christmas present, I am going to year 1, yeah! My student loan also got approved. That i have to thank God, as He heard my prayers.

Finally, looking forward to the brand new year. New hopes, new wishes and new targets to achive.

Maybe today next year i'll be someone different. Looking forward to it. XD

Like a friend* of mine who decided to change heading into the year 2009. I wonder how long till he change back to the normal him.

*now known as KAI